Growing up is hard. Having to make mature adult decisions can be really tough sometimes. Realizing that you have certain qualities about yourself that you aren't too proud of can also be very unpleasant. Accepting this truth is brutal. I have recently realized a few things about myself that I am not okay with. The first step is realizing the issue and the second step is dealing with it. Just being honest here, there is a trace of hesitancy in me saying it would be easy not to face what I have recently realized. But of course I know that is not the path I should take.
Can I also say all of these crazy pregnancy hormones aren't making things any easier?
Not quite sure why the Lord has now decided to show me these things in my life, but I trust Him to help me deal with it. Josh is very proud of me for realizing this about myself. Let's just say if he would have told me, it wouldn't have gone over so well. I don't have any answers yet but I know the Lord is working on my heart.
Oh to be a grown up. Not so fun sometimes.